Can I Motovate Myself This Time?

My life since high school as been a back and forth of trying to motivate myself to work out and be healthy and not wanting to move from the couch. I do OK for a while but then give in because being healthy is not easy. I do not have the time or energy to convince myself to do the right thing all the time. It’s so easy to get discouraged because you’re not really seeing results. Or you start to gain weight back and then just continually expand because you and your body disagree on what you should look like.

Just look at my previous blog posts. I’ve been here before... still working on it. I’m a mom who never gets time to herself to pee in private let alone be able to work out at a normal time. I had to get up at 5:30 yesterday morning to get my first workout in and even though I felt great after it was like fighting a battle with myself to get out of bed to do it. I DON’T GET TIME TO MYSELF AT LEAST LET ME SLEEP.

To try to motivate myself I got workout shoes that actually fit because I’d been wearing my pre-pregnancy shoes and those bitches haven’t fit right since I got pregnant with my son and he’s going to be 3 soon. And then I got a punching bag because if anything I’ll get to hit something really hard, and if hitting something can be good for your health I’m all in. I might seem quiet and reserved to people who don’t know me, but on the inside I’m slightly mischievous with some violent tendencies towards punching bags that I imagine are people that have been rude to me. I feel like I’ve gotten off topic and opened a door to my mind I was not prepared for.

Me at the start of my 5:30am workout vs the end. I’m a lot happier now that I have a punching bag so I can beat the crap out of something when I have to wake up early! pic.twitter.com/dt1hIqMrtG

— Laura (@LolaLoop) January 25, 2018

I signed up for a 5k in April (Zombies, Run! Virtual 5k) and am doing my best at eating better. But that shit is hard. Why does all the best food have SO MANY CARBS AND CALORIES?! Wish me luck! If you’re in the same boat let me know and we can cry over carrot sticks together. And also wine because I’m not giving up everything good.