New Year Big Changes

Something came up that is going to bring some unexpected changes to 2019. I've accepted an offer for a different job. I like where I am, but sometimes when you get the opportunity to do something new, no matter how scary and unfamiliar it is, you take it. The biggest change is that I'll be working from home, which is both great and new and also slightly intimidating.

I say intimidating because I'll be responsible for making sure I'm working when I need to be without someone watching me. I got my Bachelor's degree online though so I don't doubt that I can set a schedule for myself and stick to it... one that includes getting up later than I have to now and getting a workout in before starting my day. I'm going to set my routine and I'm strangely excited about it.

I'm scheduled to start after the holidays and I can't think of a better way to start a new year than to leap into a new challenge with excitement and eagerness. I can't wait to get started. I hope 2019 brings you joy and change for the better as well. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

I Do Weird Things Sometimes

I noticed something weird about myself today as I was checking out at the grocery store and it made me realize that I've got some quirks. My brain is weird.

• When putting in my pin number at the checkout, I think of a different number as I'm punching in the right one just in case anyone with telepathy wants to steal my information.
• I don't want to say that I don't believe in ghosts because I'm worried a ghost might show up just to prove me wrong.
• I have a plan if zombies become a reality. But only the slow ones. If the fast zombies happen I know I've got no chance.
• I don't like going out in the dark by myself because of said non-existent zombies.
• When I'm driving I won't play a song if it talks about dying or crashing because I think it might jinx me.

Actually this just made me realize that I have a lot of weird fears... dang.

I'm Doing It?

My last post was about making a change and starting to get healthy. I might actually be sticking with it this time. I've worked out 9 of the past 10 days (1 of those was a yoga session but I'm counting it). I'm thinking I may have found some motivation this time and now the struggle is keeping it up. Funnily enough, the motivation came from a saying... yup that was it. No bribing myself with clothes or a trip or some kind of gift.

Do your future self a favor and work hard today.

A screenshot from a Pointless Blog video.

He painted that saying on his gym wall.

 

 If I think about what I'm doing as not for myself today, but for myself in 6 months, l year, & however many years away, the change and choices I am making will benefit future me. I hope you're thankful, future me, because this is really hard.

Some days I enjoy working out. I find myself looking forward to it because even if all I can get is a half hour, it's a half hour I get to (and for) myself. I'm not putting too much pressure on myself. If I really want chocolate I'll have some. It's ok to eat unhealthy things sometimes as long as you're aware that it means you have to work even harder. You didn't fail because you ate a doughnut... just do some more squats and cardio. I love food so I'm not going to let my desire to lose weight get in the way of it. If I denied myself the things I liked I wouldn't have made it a week.

If you're struggling I'm right there with you. Cheers to you and good luck.

Can I Motovate Myself This Time?

My life since high school as been a back and forth of trying to motivate myself to work out and be healthy and not wanting to move from the couch. I do OK for a while but then give in because being healthy is not easy. I do not have the time or energy to convince myself to do the right thing all the time. It’s so easy to get discouraged because you’re not really seeing results. Or you start to gain weight back and then just continually expand because you and your body disagree on what you should look like.

Just look at my previous blog posts. I’ve been here before... still working on it. I’m a mom who never gets time to herself to pee in private let alone be able to work out at a normal time. I had to get up at 5:30 yesterday morning to get my first workout in and even though I felt great after it was like fighting a battle with myself to get out of bed to do it. I DON’T GET TIME TO MYSELF AT LEAST LET ME SLEEP.

To try to motivate myself I got workout shoes that actually fit because I’d been wearing my pre-pregnancy shoes and those bitches haven’t fit right since I got pregnant with my son and he’s going to be 3 soon. And then I got a punching bag because if anything I’ll get to hit something really hard, and if hitting something can be good for your health I’m all in. I might seem quiet and reserved to people who don’t know me, but on the inside I’m slightly mischievous with some violent tendencies towards punching bags that I imagine are people that have been rude to me. I feel like I’ve gotten off topic and opened a door to my mind I was not prepared for.

Me at the start of my 5:30am workout vs the end. I’m a lot happier now that I have a punching bag so I can beat the crap out of something when I have to wake up early! pic.twitter.com/dt1hIqMrtG

— Laura (@LolaLoop) January 25, 2018

I signed up for a 5k in April (Zombies, Run! Virtual 5k) and am doing my best at eating better. But that shit is hard. Why does all the best food have SO MANY CARBS AND CALORIES?! Wish me luck! If you’re in the same boat let me know and we can cry over carrot sticks together. And also wine because I’m not giving up everything good.

December Vlog

December was pretty great. I was really excited for Christmas and with all the lights and decorations it was so cozy and warm! I was sad to take the tree down but I was glad to have the corner of my living room back!

What’s the Plan for 2018?

I’ve been struggling a bit lately because I want to start writing on here again. I have things I want to say but it’s a bit problematic when I want to talk about difficult topics but I also want to keep it on the lighter side. Those two things just don’t go together. When I write stuff it’s usually for me. It’s something I can look back on later and see what my thoughts were or what I liked. 

I also don’t want to make this a mom blog. Not that there’s anything wrong with that (yes that was a Seinfeld reference). But, since I have a son I want to talk about stuff we’re dealing with (WTF is up with potty training?!).

If I’m honest with myself nobody reads this anyway so I might as well write what I want when I want. It’s a creative release and a way to vent if needed. But seriously, why does potty training suck so hard? WHY DO YOU REFUSE TO POOP IN THE TOILET, TINY HUMAN?!

 This crazy kid is usually the reason

I don't have time for anything.

So anyway I’ll be posting on here more regularly again… I just don’t know what that schedule will be or if there will even BE a schedule. I also don’t know what I’ll be doing, which is pretty true to my everyday life so it’ll be a good representation of me. A hot mess.