What Happened To My Life?

So a lot has changed since I wrote anything last. First is that I started taking classes so I have zero time for anything else. I actually should be reading right now and studying for a test for 2 classes. And writing a theory paper which scares the crap out of me.

On top of that is even scarier/great news. Just before classes started I found out that I will be having a baby in February. Yup, a BABY. There is a person inside me right now and not in a sexual way. It's still weird for me to say. This will make taking my classes way harder but they're online so... Doable anyway. Hopefully I'll have a healthy and awesome nerd baby. And I'm starting my checking out some nerd baby stuff.

Find these at http://www.geekabyebaby.com/burp-cloths-and-bibs/comic-geek/design-your-own-comic-book-bib/

Also, ThinkGeek has a bunch of baby stuff I'm going to need for reasons I haven't fully established yet. http://www.thinkgeek.com/geek-kids/newborn-infant/

In all reality though I'm slightly terrified. We'd been married for 8 years so I didn't think it would happen and then BAM. "Oh hey, you're working full time and going back to school? BABY." Life is trying to stress me out or something.

Comic Con!

I went to Motor City Comic Con! It was pretty awesome, but it was mostly a giant nerd mall that you have to pay to enter and it's Halloween. I came away with a pretty good haul, at least.

My favorite was my nerd art.

 From top to bottom:

Art by Ken Krekler, I can't remember... sorry!, and Thirteenth Floor

I also got some more graphic novels.

From left to right:

Saga (Vol 1), Walking Dead: Vol 15, Walking Dead: Vol 16, The Watchmen

I went with a few friends and had a great time and I was only slightly awkward, so I'll call that a win. We only went for 1 day, so if I ever go again I'll have to go for 2 days and take my time. I didn't go to any panels (not enough time) or get any autographs (because I'm cheap). I think I may have had more fun if I got there early enough for panels.

Comic Con "red carpet". I'm dressed as SHIELD agent Jemma 

Simmons. I don't know what to do with my hands...

There were some really cool costumes. One of my favorites (that I have pictures of) was a mother-daughter costume (Uhura!) and a really cool Master Chief.

 

Love this costume idea! And the little girl was so cute!

My favorite worst costume was a aluminum foil Thor. This guy made the Thor helmet with foil and had a foil hammer and a towel for a cape. It was so awful that I thought it was hilarious. Unfortunately I don't have any pictures.

If you want to check out some more pictures, go here!

What Happened

I had this plan to get back to writing again. I even had some topics picked out. But then we moved and have more painting and house prep things to do and I no longer have internet or TV at home so I feel like I'm living in some strange universe.

I DON'T HAVE INTERNET AT HOME, GUYS!

I can't even express the withdrawals. And it's not because we haven't gotten around to hooking it up yet. We literally can't get internet faster than 512kb right now. In case you don't speak internet, it's faster than dial-up but still too slow to do anything of use. I can't watch YouTube and it takes forever just to load Pinterest. I can't even stream Pandora because it's so slow. I live in the middle of nowhere. God help me I'm turning into the hermit I dreamed of except in my mind I also had internet. I CAN'T BE A HERMIT WITHOUT INTERNET!

So now I'm sitting in the local library using their internet during my lunch break. On my iPad mini. It's hard to type on this thing. This might be my life now. I love the library because books, but some of the patrons not so much. Seriously there is a guy in here talking on his phone... Loudly. THIS IS A LIBRARY SHUT YOUR FACE! The first rule of the library is THERE IS NO LOUD TALKING IN THE LIBRARY. I'm getting really worked up, sorry about that.

                                  

On the positive side I might finally get around to finishing that book I've been writing (haha not really- more like ignoring) for a couple of years. But I am amazing at procrastinating so I doubt it. Someone inspire me or something because my brain isn't good at convincing me to finish things.

P.S. Sorry if the layout is all weird I'm trying to use the Blogger app to write this and it needs work. I need to start carrying a backpack around for my laptop. Because apparently I don't look lame enough.

Quarter-life Crisis

I can't be having a "mid"-life crisis yet because I'm too young for that, so I'm going to call it a quarter-life crisis instead.

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I would like things to be different, but because I haven't done more than think about it while wearing sweatpants and watching TV, nothing has changed. Nothing against sweatpants, those things are warm miracles of comfort.

I'm trying to make future plans, most of which require me to have something more than an associate's degree in bullshit (liberal arts- what is that shit even supposed to be in anyway?). So, I might be going back to college for a bachelor's. I'm ridiculously scared when I don't need to be, but I thought I was done with homework! And my student loan is so close to being paid off that I'm a little bit hesitant to start piling on more debt. But I'm going to be 30 this year so maybe that's why I'm freaking out and thinking about babies. Stop it, brain.

I'm really wishing now that I just would have followed through right after my associate's when I originally wanted to. And then 7 years went by and I still haven't returned. This would have been easier when I was younger and had more energy. "Youth is wasted on the young." -George Bernard Shaw

Happy Valentine's- I'm Back!

Happy Valentine's Day! My gift to you is this crappy post.

I wish I had a reason why I stopped blogging for the last month, but I don’t. I blame the winter blues. It’s cold and I don’t feel like doing anything other than sleeping when I’m home. Is that a great excuse? No, but taking a break is better than trying to force something. I don’t do good work when I don’t feel like putting in the effort, and I really wanted a break recently. It must be all of the TV and movies I’ve been watching and the books I’ve been reading that have had me so distracted.

Sherlock was back… this season was a bit different but I was glad to have new episodes. Can you believe that thing happened? Man, I didn’t expect that (I’m trying to keep this spoiler free)!

Thanks, Nerdist!

And then Walking Dead started back up again so I had to rewatch old episodes so I could remind myself of all of the messed up shit that happened to them. The latest episode was almost exactly like the comic and it was so good!

And then I have been obsessed with watching Angel for some reason. I blame David Boreanaz’s beautiful, beautiful face for that. I stopped watching after the part of the first season when the character I love dies (trying not to spoil it if you haven’t seen it, but the show has been over since 2004- watch it already) and I was heartbroken when they were gone. Kind of like Doctor Who, it took me a long time before I could watch David Tennant’s last episode. I skipped it and went straight to Matt Smith’s first episode because I couldn’t take the feels of seeing him go. Actually it was the same thing with Billie Piper’s last episode. I just can’t take the sad feels, guys.

But either way I'll probably try to start posting more again.

P.S. I'm posting from my iPhone and blogging from this thing kind of sucks because I can't get some of the formatting how I want (like linking things). So if you're looking for the Nerdist valentine's here they are: http://www.nerdist.com/2014/02/say-i-love-you-with-16-ultra-nerdy-valentines-day-cards/

No-tivation

I have no motivation (No-tivation) whatsoever these days. I can't force myself to stick to anything. And believe me, it would make things a lot easier.

 

Working out is a good example of this.

You should work out.

Yeah, but I won't

Why?

I don't want to.

But you NEED to. It's good for you and you're fat.

I know, shut up.

So?

Still no.

Ok, if you work out you can have the thing you want.

I can have the thing now.

Pretend you can't have it until you do.

But I know I can have it now. See? I'm getting it anyway.

But if you get healthier you will be smaller and you can wear the clothes you like.

I don't want to wear them that badly.

You hate yourself don't you?

Yes.

 I can't even trick myself into doing things that are good for me. Anyone else have this problem? How do you get motivated, or at least trick yourself into it. I've tried inspiration and that only works for a day or 2 at most.